Since I have not really deactivated or updated my LinkedIn profile, I still get emails and the occasional text tempting me with a job offer of some sort. And as I sit here, trying to contemplate my study plans for the night and weekend, I have to say the idea of responding to one of them is appealing. For one thing, the money would be far better. Instead of burning through savings, I’d be building savings back up.

But the truth be told, that thought is only a fleeting one. Firstly, I’ve been away from active DBA work for a couple of years now. I’d have to take time to come up to speed and that would be stressful in and of itself. But also, ultimately I suspect I’d be bored or frustrated again.

And there are definitely nights I miss working as a Tech in the ED. Yeah, there were shifts I hated, but overall I enjoyed it. However, I’ll still pick up some over holidays over the course of the next year. That should sate some of my desire.

My biggest doubts come on nights like tonight where the doubts creep into my head. One of my classmates has tracked how many tests and quizzes we’ve had and the approximate number left in our didactic year. I don’t know the number, but it’s up there. Each one brings a new period of stress. And of course, after our didactic year comes our clinical year, 10 rotations, 4 weeks each. Not only will I be stressed about each area I’ll be assigned to, I may often have to figure out housing for that period of time (and how to pay for it!)

But I remind myself, that it’ll be worth it. That the ED is where I want to be, and while I think I’ve done a lot of good as a Tech, I hope to do even more as a PA.

But those regular hours, and higher pay, they are tempting. Just not like they used to.